The first thing that stands out to me when I see children is their curiosity. Now, they might not be interested in learning the parts of a flower (because which 9 year-old cares about how seeds are made?) but they are curious about the world around them – why clouds move, why winter days are so short, and why they live so close to their paternal grandparents but so far from their maternal grandparents. In mid-October, I was in Dailekh for a monitoring trip from work where my team went to schools in different corners of the district.
On the first day, we sat on the ledge outside the school building at break-time. We watched as the boys carefully aligned their slippers, and played a game of catch which somehow involved breaking the arrangement of slippers and then realigning them. The girls were huddled up in smaller groups; in each, two girls had their hands arranged in different positions, fingers flayed, so that their friends could jump over their hands. As children, we used to play a similar game with long chains of rubber bands. The girls had probably modified the game because rubber bands were not so freely available to them. I was affected by the kids’ creativity.
But I was also heartbroken. Although I have been seen the poor condition of teaching-learning in rural Nepal before, I still haven’t gotten used to how disengaged the students are, how indifferent the teachers are, and how dysfunctional the whole system is. The first things that I noticed was that teachers were late to class, that they were unprepared, and that they wasted a lot of class-time.
But then we’d sit at meetings with the teachers, and other members of my team would talk about both the positive and negative aspects of the school. These meetings made me realize that although the situation of these schools was appalling to someone like me, they were a fry cry from what they were a few years back.
For one, there were toilets (separate for boys and girls). The kids were clean and mostly in uniform, which means that parents understand how important school is, and how important it is that kids be able to concentrate in school. And best of all, we got to see many happy, smiling kids, which meant that they weren’t afraid of school anymore – that their teachers weren’t hitting them.
But besides those very basic things, we saw a huge range in terms of physical infrastructure, teacher motivation, school performance and teaching-learning activities. Some of these kids go to a school with a library they regularly visit, and where job charts and classroom rules help them feel ownership of and responsibility towards their classroom. Some of the others go to schools where there is a library that children can’t access because they are not trusted with the books, and where materials are hardly ever used.
Although the students were not used to listening to and speaking in English, they sang songs frequently. One of the things I loved best about my time in Dailekh were these songs. The students would be singing children’s songs in English, but in typical Dailekh folk-song tune. My absolute favorite was the Hokey Pokey, localized.
I was pleased to see a school where class teachers stayed with the same cohort of students for three years, but equally saddened when I heard teachers calling their students “ta (तँ)” (in Nepali, different levels of respect are attached to the word “you” – “ta” is the least respectful, and children are usually called “timi (तिमी)”, which is a step above “ta”), saying that the way they were singing the song was making him fall asleep, or asking a child, rhetorically, what he had learned in the three years that he’d studied in the fifth grade. I was also saddened when I found out that even some third grade students had a hard time with the alphabets. They would recognize one letter and recite the rest of the alphabet. We showed them a card with jumbled up letters, but to them, the letter that came after a “u” was always a “v”.
I passed a first-grade Math class one day, and saw that the teacher was writing the numbers 1-100 on the board. In the next few minutes, I saw two number charts on the walls. I was so angry at how he was wasting his students’ time, but at the same time, this was a little bit comic. I went a little further from the building and laughed. Later, a colleague asked why I was laughing that day. “I laughed because I couldn’t cry,” I told him.
While spending time in the schools, I saw that some of the students had guavas for lunch, mostly picked from a tree near the school, because it was guava season. When freely-available fruits are in season, the kids have mid-day snacks. The rest of the time, they don’t eat at all between 10 am and 4 pm. I can’t blame them for not learning if their stomachs aren’t full.
On the last day, we went to a school whose ECD (Early Childhood Development) classroom was one of the most fun classrooms I have ever seen. The teacher, Mrs. Shahi, sat in a circle with her students and talked to them. One of her sessions focused on public speaking. I was spellbound by her and her students. But I had just talked to a group of third graders who did not know the name of the basic colors (red, blue, green, yellow, black, and white) in English, a language they were supposedly studying for the last three years. Although children are required to have a working knowledge of English to pass the SLC, it wasn’t their lack of proficiency in English that worried me.
This is how a majority of kids grow up, I thought. They climb trees and share guavas with their friends, they make up games as they play and make up after they fight with each other. But inside the classroom, they sit quietly, not speaking until spoken to, not listening to the teacher as he/she lectures about a topic that seems either too close to their lives (like caste-based discrimination) or irrelevant (like the parts of a flower). And some of them don’t even have access to bathrooms.
That day, I sat down on a ledge outside a fifth-grade classroom and wiped off the quiet tears that slid down my face. I had seen the kids’ potential in their innocent smiles, in their curious gazes, and in the ways that they responded to us when we talked to them, and I knew that at most, 20% of them will reach this potential, not because the rest of them will get lazy, but because our education system will fail them, and because they won’t know that they can ask for better, that they deserve better.